Survival 101
It happened to me and this is what I asked:
What happened?
How did this happen?
Why did this happen?
What do I do now!
My Survival Continued.......
On the morning of August 29th they wheeled me into Pre Operative care where I was prepped for surgery. It was time I go under the knife. There were a few options on the table prior to this decision. Me being in the condition I was in, I could not make that decision. Thankfully my dad was there to make that one for me. My father chose to have me put under the knife and surgically remove it invasively. This was a guarantee that the AVM will be removed completely. The other options where Gamma Knife and coiling. I didn't know what that meant at the time either but it just didn't sound right.
I still at that point was very confused about what was going on and what happened. I told my fiancé prior to being flown to St. Mary's Hospital that whatever happens, please tell my girls that daddy loves them very much and I will always be there for them. That is one of the things I do remember very clearly.
I vaguely remember being wheeled to the Operating Room. I do remember telling the nurse that I had made mistakes in my life and that I am sorry for my wrong doing. I think at that time I was really making piece with God. I was very scared just because things where just happening too fast and I did not have a say so in anything. I let it all go and put my faith and trust in the Neurosurgeon Dr. Meyer who was going to perform the surgery. He spoke to me prior and said he was going to take very good care of me. Believe it or not, I didn't have much faith or trust in anything but I truly believed him and what he said to me.